Hi ladies...
*fuh fuh tiup habuk kat lappy* Rasa macam dah lama tak ber-blog..uols sihat? :)
Hmm, yes people. BIG & HUGE changes. Hmmm..how to story ekk? hmmm..
While I was in Jakarta last month, something happened..which mendatangkan effect yg sgttttt dasyat dan mendalam kat diri Ann. Emm.. it's like a wake up call. Membuatkan Ann terduduk seketika. Termenung panjang. Bertakafur sekejap. Tidur malam pon tak lena sebab asyik memikirkan. Macam2 perasaan ada. Insaf, sayu, sebak, bersyukur, gembira..speechless....
Alhamdulillah, Ann dah fikir masak2. I mintak pendapat Ash,he was damn shocked pasal my decision, but he said OK. *ala, dia OK je all the time..tak tau la bila tak OK dia tu ;p* Setiap benda yg berlaku, Ann percaya pasti ada hikmah di sebaliknya. And I know it's def a good one,InsyaAllah :)
Maka dengan ini, recara rasminya I have to say good bye to them......& all sketches bla bla..decorator yg I dah lama impikan for my wedding, white dress yg cantik gila sampai Ann t'mimpi2, designer yg Ann mmg adore dari sebelum Ann plan nak kawen lagi, photog yg TERbaikkk, chinchin idaman hati dari dulu,kini & selamanya, latest collection yg I da aim & the list goes on :( :( :(
Ya. I wanna slash 80% of my dream vendors. Am so sorry guys, I just... can't................
I still remember 'that' moment...
I dah boleh agak start I change my mind masa JB's vendors,I knew I'll change for KL's too,tapi tak la sebanyak ni....
I feel weird sebab am not acting like me. Selalunya kalo I dah suka,I akan terus book & place dep. Kalo barang,suka terus beli. takde fikir2 byk...but now alhamdulillah,I've changed.
AND
I dun want or suppose to burden my beloved Ash..I rasa guilty & seriously i feel like am crying inside straightly after I saw he wrote xx amount kat 2nd cheque for our 2nd 10% our new house's PP payment haritu.....it's a huge amount & it's not for biz purpose & it's from hasil titik peluh dia & it's our future sweet home,just for me,him & our baby.........oh,speechless..... *crying*
Still, I need to motivate myself everyday..over and over again........
'Ann, will u still want to spend RM4xk for ur deco?Dun u want urs to be talk of the town & u akan ingat sampai bila2?'
Oh man....pls pls go away suara2 jahat ni..shuh! jgn terpedaya Ann. Beringat sikit time senang. Cari duit susah payah, then nak byr $$$ utk just few hours tu je?NO NO! NO!
'Ann, will u still want that RM7+k super damn gorgeous white swarovski dress?' *Meleleh wa cakap lu. siap rasa nak pakai time tidur.gagaga.* YES!
Then, ko dah pakai sekali je time wed, bulan depannya ko gigih cari orang, start advertise nak jual..ada ke org nak beli? kalo ko rent pon belum tentu ada orang nak. dah bekas ko kot. erk?mak SENTAP! - it's actually kata2 sarcastic & 'makan dalam' from 1 of my fren to me. Thanks Farah. ko mmg hebat :(
dan byk lagi la kata2, dari org ramai, suara2 ghaib muncul memberikan semangat..haha.
Ok.*Inhale,exhale..1 more time..dah macam aerobic ;p*
Now, back to square one. Mode : Start diggin' for decorator 1st..
Whatever it is, alhamdulillah..ann syukur & it's still not too late ;p Thanks to all lovely friends & families yg bagi continues support & byk motivate me. Yg penting, kawen. hehe. Wish me luck & jangan lupa, teruskan mmeberi ayat2 sentap supaya Ann sentiasa beringat, menyokong dan mengundi saya ye kawan2..taip AFUNDI ANN.. *motif dah practice ayat nak masuk AF9?* bahaha.
p/s: segala isi perut post kali ini tiada kena mengena ngan sesiapa,yg hidup mahupun yang tinggal nyawa2 ikan. ianya hanyalah luahan dari hati cik ann yg tak keruan nak kahwin ni.































